First week is practically over…6/80 and day 7 is a recovery day, almost here! I have a felt my mindset shifting this first week and I am really happy about that. I haven’t been stepping on the scale because I don’t want to be discouraged by the number if it isn’t shifting right away. I am not one to generally do that, but I remember when I did Whole 30 how not stepping on the scale was such a big part of it and how it was liberating to remove that as the main indicator of success. I have some BIG goals for 2018 and getting into a wellness routine I can maintain is one of them. It’s hard to look at pictures from just over a year ago and realize how much I have undone. It makes it really difficult to focus on the present if you’re living in the past, so I’m doing my best not to let it get me down. I have a long way to go to feeling my best but I have the tools and accountability partners to help me succeed. It’s a matter of showing up every day; I CAN do this! There are seven days in a week and someday isn’t one of them.
This post is going to be a little long, I can feel it. Having a clear vision is a big part of the way I live. It helps me create the environment I can thrive in and positions me well for when I am faced with curve balls. Anyone else spend time visualizing steps that need to be taken in order to achieve BIG goals? My overall wellness is actually one corner of my vision board for 2018, but I have goals for several aspects of my life. For my home, I am in a place in my life where I want to declutter and live more simply. I tend to place emotional value on material things and after a while I have realized it really weighs me down. I have noticed that when I give in and clear a space out with a trunk full for donations, it is freeing and makes that space more peaceful. In 2018 I am breaking down my home by rooms and decluttering to make space for peace. In January the master bathroom and my office space are my priority. Little by little, I want to create a more simple life for myself and for my family. I know we will all benefit from this material cleanse. It really is, just stuff.
My family is my world. I want to be my best so I can give my best to them. Being a wife and mother truly is my personal legend. Ever since I was a little girl I envisioned being married and creating a life full of love and experiences that made for everlasting memories for myself and my loved ones. Not kids exactly. I had a clear vision about being married. Having a husband and creating a wonderful life. I fell into the mother part without seeing it coming and it has been the best thing that ever happened to me. For a long time, I told myself having that dream was too small and that I had to go out and do more so others wouldn’t think I was just this small town girl without aspirations. It took me a long time to stop caring what other people were thinking about me. Do I suffer from the occasional worry of, “what would she think if I…” of course I do…everyone has insecurities sometimes. However, I am much more myself today than I was 10 years ago and that shift came from when I became a mother. In the early years after becoming a mother I was faced with a choice: Do I care more what strangers think of me & how that makes me feel OR do I care more how my words and my actions make my children feel? As soon as I said those words out loud to myself I knew right then I would never be the same.
My family is EVERYTHING. My God gave me such a gift because I wanted this with my whole heart. The universe conspired with me to help me attain this. SO I WILL FIGHT FOR IT…I will not be afraid to say what I know is true: This is what I have always wanted and the love I pour into our family will be my legacy and that is enough for me. Have you ever read The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho? It was life changing for me. Put it on your reading list.
This year I want to take the boys tent camping. I’m a Florida girl through and through (Puerto Rican by birth) and Florida raised. Being outside is part of who I am and want to pass on to my boys. I am also set on taking them to a big city. We went to Chicago when the twins were 5 but I was pregnant with Nicklaus so he didn’t see Chicago…definitely tasted their deep dish though, lol. I’m feeling a plane ride for Nicklaus in 2018…it’s on my vision board. Mostly I want to fill 2018 with more experiences than ever before. I do my best and within our means to provide that for them every year as spending time with them fills me with so much happiness and in 2018 I am taking it to the next level.
With work too. Next Level. I have been working for almost 11 years to be positioned where I am right now. It is exhilarating and exhausting and I have so many emotions (mostly positive) about it all so far. It’s been almost 6 months and I have learned so much. I love learning. I especially love being surrounded by solution creating people…and that is where I am. Our team is FULL of people looking for ways to improve processes and create solutions. We work hard and we work smart. You cannot speak for everyone, obviously…I’m talking our core team…I am fired up. The only thing better than investing yourself, caring, showing up, and being determined to make an impact is being surrounded by people who want those same things. We cannot be stopped.
That’s where I’m at y’all. That’s 2018 in a blog post. And lastly, but most importantly, I cannot be stopped because I am the daughter of the King. Looking up and praying hard for direction to remain on a path of love. When you act in love, BIG things happen. I have seen this in my own life as well as others with this shared perspective. My God, He’s the man. He gives me what I need to move forward and a perspective I can have confidence in. I am excited for a year of growth where I invest my heart and gifts in the mission of the MOMS group from our church, giving back more, showing who I am more, and being completely unafraid of being the whole package. I was created in His image. He will never leave me nor forsake me. This is the life I was meant to live.